This is Liz speaking. I need to tell you: Seeing those pictures brings me right back to surgery time again. I feel all those emotions just like I felt them a year ago. Ugh! I am SOOOO very glad that we are on THIS side of the surgery and now Simi's fine and we never have to think about it again. Simi DOES have his one year check-up, which is scheduled for some time in December. But that's no big deal. Phew!
Raj and I mentioned the anniversary to Simi. He mentioned that he has memories of Boston. He remembers parts of the hospital visit: making a building with me with the cardboard "bricks" in the play room (which happened before the surgery), playing with cars with me in the play room (which happened the night before he was released), watching "A Bug's Life", and Raj sleeping with him (although it was actually me who slept with him). When asked if his memories were happy or sad, he responded, "happy". I'm 95% sure that he doesn't remember the surgery. I remember Dr. Breitbart saying something about the pain medication they give the children helps them "not remember" that day. That's nice. I remember bawling my eyes out that entire day and just thinking about it brings back the anxiety I felt - in full force. I've somehow managed to keep that anxiety away from Simi, and we managed to fill his "adventure" with fun and love and that's what he remembers. Phew!
Raj took a photo of Simi and his scar and will post it as soon as he can. In the meantime, I think I'm going to write and write and write and push those pictures WAAAAY down to the bottom of the page.
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Liz, Raj, and our children Simi, Asher, and Leila
1 comment:
If seeing the pictures bothers you so much, maybe there's a way you can erase the posts with the pictures from the blog. That way you never have to look at them again. When Simi gets older, I suggest you not let him read the posts you did on his surgery the day it happened, because you never know... memories might come up unexpectedly. That happened to me with the orphanage thing. I'm sure you'll find a way to avoid looking at the pictures. I'm glad Simi is doing well.
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